did that fucker just jump on water is this fucking cat jesus
be like cat paws
very nice, very soft, very squishy,
but when threatened?
Oh, my sweet Westley, what have I done?
This is wonderful!
(Aaaand reverse image search isn’t giving me a source or artist, just a lot of reblogs and pinterest hits.)
Something I wrote today. It’s called Hugs.
My hugs changed after you died. Was that the first thing to change or…..? I don’t know. It is the thing that has stuck out the most. After all that self-important living life to the fullest crap faded. Never take another day for granted and blah blah blah. But we always end up doing just that don’t we? After losing people we love or even our own near death experiences, that urgency and new approach to life always fades at some point. It becomes an empty mantra, not a belief. I wonder if that is one of humanities great flaws.
But, anyway. Hugs.
I don’t remember the specific way I used to hug. It wasn’t something I analyzed. I wrapped my arms around people and squeezed. Basic. Simple. And then I woke up one morning and you were dead. God, you know, I hate that word! It sounds so harsh. I prefer the term passed away. I think that is easier for loved ones to say and hear. Less of a punch to the gut. Or maybe I’m just a big softie. But it occurred to me, subconsciously, that the wrapping and the squeezing just wasn’t enough in this case. So I started gently rubbing the persons back as part of the hug. Nothing huge or creepy. Just a warm, comforting, compassionate gesture. That little extra bit. My hugs evolved, like a godamn Pokémon, and it was out of my control. I just hugged so many people at your wake I think it became muscle memory. People I didn’t even know, but we were all united in our shock and grief. The grief rolls in like waves. And sometimes it comes in tsunamis that pull you under till you can’t breathe. I have never cried that hard in my life. But you come up out of the water eventually and when you do you are forever changed. And apparently in strange ways like hugging techniques.
I first noticed it a few days after your wake, when I resurfaced and tried to join the rest of the world again. I hugged an ex-boyfriend. Nothing big. It was a sympathy hug from him. He certainly didn’t need any comforting that’s for sure and yet there I was. Rubbing his damn back. And it hit me. This is it; this is how I hug now. You died, the world flipped upside down, and I was waiting for it to right itself. Until this moment when I realized that it never would. The sky was now the earth, the earth was now the sky, and my hugs were changed forever. This was the new normal.
It was such a small change and yet so earth shattering for me that to this day every damn time I hug someone (wrap arms, squeeze, rub back) I think of you. I don’t know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Maybe it is just a thing. I am sure I have changed in other ways too. I don’t feel particularly braver or overly grateful but maybe those are the changes people don’t notice; the big ones that happen gradually. But none of it stands out quite like the hugs do.
DIY Lemonade on We Heart It
One of my favorite DIYs. It’s super easy, cheap, and fast if you need some last minute Halloween decor. It’s also apartment friendly, as it doesn’t require any hooks or nails in the walls. :D You can find instructions and templates to create these little guys here, but it’s easy to find other silhouettes with a quick Google search! I also picked up a 12 pack of rat silhouettes at the Dollar Tree a few years ago, and they’ve proven sturdy enough to be reused this coming year. I don’t know if they’re still available there around Halloween, but it’s worth a look if you don’t feel like cutting your own!
Dragon’s Blood Jasper Pendulum
Special little daily doodle. Playing more with baby toothless and how to make hiM EVEN CUTER. Infinite cute.
This one was still pretty quick cause my district manager was roaming about the area today putting all the store’s managers into a tizzy.
I need to see no more cosplays for the rest of my life, this one takes the proverbial cake.
Woohoo finished! “The Alpha” available in my #society6 store now :) #toothless #hiccup #truehomies #howtotrainyourdragon
Had to draw toothless all protecting his buddy.
Products available here -> http://society6.com/mandiemanzano/the-alpha#1=45